My Biggest Weakness [52 Weeks]

Hi again. Happy Wednesday! I am a few days late on this weeks 52 Weeks of Blogging With a Purpose. Today it’s all about our biggest weaknesses. I’ve mentioned my anxiety briefly and wrote about it in Blog Every Day in May. One day soon I want to be able to sit and really write about my experience and how I am trying to overcome it, but I am struggling to get to there. Forgive me?

So yes, I am an anxiety sufferer.

I’ve not always struggled with anxiety but right at this moment it is there. I am by no means struggling with this as some other people do, and I am aware that my anxiety might be mild compared to others, but it is there. There are a few bits that come together…

I can be anxious in social situations. I’ve been known to not go out it because I didn’t feel I was wearing a nice outfit and I was worried that people would think I looked ridiculous. I also went out with some new girls from my new school recently but I got really worried and almost didn’t go. I don’t know where that worry came from but it was there.

I can be anxious in every day life. While at my previous school, I really struggled with the feeling that I wasn’t good enough even though I was working extremely hard. It got to the point I was making myself ill and not wanting to go to school and had to leave. Now I’m at my new school, that side of my has calmed down and I’m hoping it stays that way.

I am slightly obsessive. When I have a thought, or have something I need to do the next day, I will obsess over it. This can last an hour, a day, or several days. Even if I have written it down or put a reminder on my phone I still can’t shake the thought.

So that’s an overview. As I’ve said before I don’t let this anxiety define me, but it is a part of me and I know that. A lot of the above are things that I haven’t shared with friends so for me to be able to sit and type it for you is a big thing for me. If you’re still here then thank you; I really appreciate it. Thank you for taking the time to read this, and if you have anything to share then head on down below as I love to hear from you.

Now for something happy after all that gloom…

Sunday Social: Holidays

Hi all! Isn’t this British sun wonderful? Even though I’m very close to melting! Today, in honour of the sun, Sunday Social this week is all about holidays.

1. What is the best trip you’ve ever been on?
I love skiing holidays. The best one was probably a trip with school to California when I was 13. We went skiing on Mount Mammoth and went to Disneyland too. It was great!



2. What is your best idea for a girls weekend trip?
If we had more money, I’d love to hop over to New York but that’s just not possible. So I’ll settle for Paris.

3. What is your best idea for a couples trip?
I’m not one to lie by the beach so anything where we can go exploring. In fact, we’re heading to Thailand for two weeks this summer and I cannot wait!

4. What is the best vacation on the cheap?
I went to Venice for 24 hours quite a while ago and that was really cheap. Even though it was a really short trip, it was nice to get away.



5. What is the place you most want to visit?
I’d love to go to Australia but I’m too scared of big spiders. I’m also desperate to go back to America; ideally New York or New Orleans.

Only 5 and a half weeks til my holidays… Hurry up Thailand! Are you heading anywhere soon?

June Favourites

Well it’s July already… Which means the countdown for my birthday starts – 25 days if you’re wondering. It also means it’s time for me to share my June Favourites with you. This month my favourites have been all about the face. I purchased my first brush for foundation this year, and I’m starting to venture into the world of eye shadows now (I’ve always been a tinted moisturiser and gel eyeliner kinda girl – so this is a big deal for me!).

First is the Real Techniques Expert Face Brush (available here). I researched the devil out of this as I wanted to know I had made a good choice for my first proper foundation brush… And I have! It really blends my foundation in well and gives it a flawless finish. I’ve since bought two other Real Techniques brushes (I see an addiction forming).

In line with the brush, I invested in some Rimmel Wake Me Up Foundation (available here). I’m late to this as everyone has been using it forever. I started with Natural Beige which was just a tad too dark of me (but works with my holiday tan), so I got the Classic Beige to mix in and it looks great now.

MUA is a brand that is slowly building up in my collection. My newest addition is the MUA Undress Me Too Eye Palette (available here). As a whole this is great and I have used a few of them together to make a natural daytime eye, or to make a slightly stronger smoky eye for the night time.

Finally is part of my daily skincare routine (a post coming soon); Botanics Gentle Cleansing Cream All Bright and the Botanics Cleansing Toner (both available here). I use these day and night and they just clean my skin right up. I’ve never been one to suffer with spots or acne, and this helps to keep it that way.

Other things I have been loving this month are:

• The return of Britain and Ireland’s Next Top Model. Preferably minus Danni Minogue but we can’t all be happy.
• The arrival of my friends two adorable Shit-zu/Poodle puppies. They are just little balls of fluff. I’m always too distracted to take pictures of them for you.
• Festival season. We’ve just had Glastonbury (see my fun times here) and then next weekend we have Wireless!
• Arctic Monkeys. I’ve rekindled my love for them after seeing them last weekend.

And that is that. June was fun, but hopefully July will be better (sun and birthdays - what else do we need?!)

Glastonbury Fun

So I am back from an amazing 5 days away at Glastonbury! I am bruised, I have a cold and I’m on antibiotics but I survived. If you’re wondering why I’m on antibiotics, I had to go to the dental hospital on Wednesday morning with a horrible wisdom tooth pain. I couldn’t even move my mouth or talk. To cut a long story short, it’s infected and we have to see what happens. This meant a mostly sober Glastonbury, but it didn’t stop the fun.

Before we get onto the photos, here are my best bits…

Arctic Monkeys

Rizzle Kicks (Not the Glastonbury performance as I can't find it on youtube - a good thing because you can see me and I'm highly embarrassed!)

Mumford and Sons

Solange

My intention for the weekend was to take a whole bunch of photos for you, but I was quite drowsy for the majority of the weekend so photos were a bit of an effort. But here’s what I managed…

Considering the illness and the antibiotics and the sleep deprivation... I honestly had the best Glastonbury yet! If you ever get the chance to go, please do, you will not regret it!

My Life 5 Years From Now [52 Weeks…]

Time to hop on over to Becky for 52 Weeks of Blogging With a Purpose. This week it’s all about the future. I generally try not to think too much about the future and where I will end up because it can make me a little anxious, but for this I looked into my crystal ball…

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Currently: I am currently an LSA (Learning Support Assistant) in a school so I support children with their speech and language development. I start teaching a SEN class in September.

In 5 years time I will be coming up to 30! I hope that…

… I will still be a teacher. I absolutely love what I do and I’m sure that I’ll be doing it for a very long time.

… I will still be living in (or around) London. 2 years ago I never wanted to live in London and here I am!

… I will have bought a house. My flat is beautiful, but I want something to call my own.

… I will be married. I’ve been in a relationship for 6 years so it’s getting close to that time.

… I will have a child. It’ll definitely be the time to have a child in my life. I can feel my self starting to get broody!

… I will still be blogging. I’m only in my third month so in 5 years I’d like to be more skilled in blogging.

… I will have conquered my anxiety demons. I’m on my way to being more relaxed about life. Although I know that I will never be anxiety free, I do want to get myself to a happy place.

That’s all. If you’re not involved with 52 Weeks… the do so! Clickity click on the picture below to take you over.